Where's the Beach?

I've read some really amazing posts over the years about over-coming self-hate, self-doubt, negative thinking. I've also read posts where people are still struggling with inner demons. I don't talk about those topics often. I tend to keep my blog posts fairly light, trying to find positivity. However, when I read such posts, they almost always strike a chord with me. Why? Because I am human too. I have people make comments about being an inspiration, being dedicated, a machine, super fit. But you know what? I have my own self-doubts to contend with. I might be a fantastic cheerleader for those around me, friends, family, bloggers, co-workers. However, I often spend all that energy outward so as to avoid dealing with my own negative self thoughts. Sometimes I don't like what I see in the mirror. I pick myself apart, am too self-critical. Of course I want to ask, "Why are women so hard on themselves?" But that's rhetorical of course. You'd think it...