Thursday, October 17, 2013

Thursday Thoughts - Running, Clouds, Food

Thursday Thoughts is very appropriate for the day. I feel like my thoughts are all over the place today. Well, this week really. I think that's apparent after yesterday's post.

Thoughts on Running
This morning I was up in plenty of time to go out for my scheduled 7-mile run. However, after recent incidents (like seeing a body, armed man, and falling), I've been really reluctant to run solo in the mornings.

It's dark. The kind of dark that spooks you for no reason. The only hint of light is from the stars and moon, if it's clear, and street lamps. While there aren't often as many vagrants out on the streets at that time (they usually are out and about much later I've noticed), it's still a bit unsettling.

I hate that I feel fearful, nervous, jumpy. I don't want to feel that way. I've gone through spells before where I felt suddenly fearful of running alone. Always wanting someone to run with me. Of course, when I do get out there and get going, I feel happy.

Yesterday I decided to run at lunch as it was raining pretty hard in the morning. Again, the nerves. And it was 11:30 am. I had a really difficult time convincing myself to get out the door. I practiced reaching for my mace and putting my thumb over the nozzle. Of course, after a mile into the run, I relaxed completely.

Today? Feeling the same jitters about running after work. I'm making excuses in my head about the traffic being bad, annoying. I'm making excuses assuming I'll be tired by the time I run. What's the deal? It's sunny. It's not blazing hot or humid for a refreshing change. Sigh.

Thoughts on Clouds
As in literally thinking about clouds here ;-) This morning the sunrise was slightly obscured by a wall of clouds (aka a cold front). The picture doesn't do it justice, but it was such a cool sight. Another window view was like look out at a mountain range.


Thoughts on Food
It donned on me this morning that once upon a time, I used to post recipes. Like several a week. I see so many amazing recipes out there, amazing photography accompanying said recipes and I feel like, "what's the bother." I've been far less inspired to spend extra time in the kitchen instead turning to faster, go-to meals week after week.

I have a kabocha perched on the counter and I have zero ideas on how I want to use the darn thing. Yes, I know, just roast it and chow down. But I want something fun, unique, memorable. And my mind is blank. And I find excuses. So it just sits there.

What are some of your thoughts for the day?