I think it's a culmination of several things. By this time in November, the showy display of fall colors is mostly over. The trees begin to simply look bare and dormant. The grass is no longer plush and flowers have faded.
My birthday also typically gets rolled into Thanksgiving because it always falls close to the holiday (though never actually on Thanksgiving).
And quite frankly, I don't want to get older. (stomp foot) In my mind I feel like high school was just yesterday. While I do feel stronger, healthier, smarter now than I did in my 20s, I'm also not ready to let go of my 30s. I feel like life is whizzing by me quite frankly.
Even just typing that makes my wistful, reflective, and, yes, sad. With the passing of time has come the passing of friends, family, beloved furbabies. I know that as more time passes, there will be even more loss. Can we hit pause?
And....let's find something happy right? I'm going to jump on the Thankful Thursday train today to remind myself of all the things in my life that make it rich and full, age completely aside.
I'm Thankful For ...My husband. Who puts up with me. All of me and my insanities. He deserves sainthood or a stiff drink.
My sister. My mom told us over and over that she had us for each other. And I truly believe that.
My parents. Not only have they had to put up with me my whole life, they have always been there for me, supported me, loved me, and taught me so much more than they'll ever know.
Friends. I may not have a huge circle of friends, but the friends I do have, I know that I can count on them through thick and thin. And some of these friends don't even live nearby (sad face) but they are still always there for me and it some days, it means the world to me (you know who you are).
Running. Never in a million years did I think I would call myself a runner. I never thought I would run half marathons or be training for a full marathon. Running has taught me so much about life, about myself.
Running friends. I mentioned it in my post on Monday, but I'm realizing how important it is to surround yourself with people who have similar passions, like running. A) They'll make you feel far less crazy and B) They'll support you during those tough miles.
What are you thankful for today? Do you ever get depressed about your birthday or do to savor the celebration?